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Hikikomori.
A person who has cut off relationships with society and remains at home for a long period of time, rarely going outside.

The term “hikikomori” may seem to refer simply to someone who has stopped moving.
A person who closes the door and lives while cutting off all connection with the world.

From the outside, they appear to be at a standstill.

And sometimes, even the time within them can feel as though it has truly stopped.
Their thoughts, their emotions, even the will to move forward—cooled and left in place.

But that stillness may not have been chosen overnight.

People are not born to hide.
Even when afraid, they try to endure, to adjust somehow, to create a place for themselves.

But at some point, small misalignments begin to repeat, minor mistakes pile up, and the gazes placed upon them slowly grow heavier.
They turn into words, into judgments, and eventually remain like a name that cannot easily be erased.
What accumulates in this way gradually chips away at a person’s heart in unseen ways.
Confidence lowers, self-esteem fades, and eventually even trust in oneself collapses.

And at some point, the desire to stop becomes greater than the desire to move forward.
Because the possibility of being hurt again is no longer bearable.

So perhaps closing the door is not an act of escape, but a choice made to avoid breaking any further.
Entering one’s own world is not abandoning the world, but a way of taking temporary distance from it.

Even so, that state still remains as “stillness.”

Time where nothing is done, a place where nothing seems to change.

But what lies within that stillness is too deep to be lightly covered with words.

Work can be learned again, but wounds left between people do not easily disappear.
Malice lingers, gazes tighten around the heart, and a single word can remain as a wound.

So some people rise again, some remain where they stopped,
and others live on with a calm face, already broken inside.

Rather than condemning hikikomori outright, wouldn’t it be possible for change if we tried, even a little, to understand and help?

That stillness may not be laziness, but the trace of endurance,
or a fragile balance barely held to keep from falling apart even there.

Instead of making quick judgments, is it so difficult to ask why they came to stop?